Summary, self-evaluation and performance in Y2S2 =|

Glad that this sem has come to a stop point.... looking forward for new start nex sem IF got chance...

Summary:

after 3 months of long holiday finally reopen~ this sem seems to be more relax for initially... however it is not tat easy lo ...

the first week:

we had an "impromptu" trip to KL... n this is a sudden decision n quite insane thing to do for the sem... because there's no class ... haha...

we went to S.Pyramid to shop for cloths =P ...

we go there by train and our train departure time is 5am !

week 5 is the most exciting week for most ppl: Chinese new Year!

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n the following week... test every week till week 13 =.=

Gosh...

week 13 is a memorable week~ wee~

we have a vacation to cameron

(to be add on/updated...)

self-evaluation:

well, is not so good lo.... this sem... i think that nt much improvement... sometimes still ...

esp my interpersonal and intra personal skills...

the way of communicating most of the time not "mature" enuf... maybe i alr get used to "childish" way to make fun of myself to ppl during secondary... but now since in the adult stage d... i should greatly reduce this kind of "non-sense" rite... so i will try to chg this....

that is y i feel tat ppl around me do not like to respond to my response.... =|

i still wish to be a bit fairer than now bcoz... it will make me looks "cleaner", my poor skin complexion and skin problems (pimples scars/mark) will let ppl perceive as "dirty"

stereotyping problem- culture n communication, some ppl may perceive black ppl "dirty" bcoz they look black... sames goes to me... i may let ppl think i m dirty in fact i m not...

U could not blame me for being "dirty" bcoz i m gifted with such poor skin... hope u can understand...

so... hopefully there's improvement in me in this aspect i hope...

in acedemic performance.... should be more focused... i lost attention easily... n cant think too further... (my mind mayb narrow sometimes)

like Bernard say.. i should think out of the box, or more than a box, during dotA-ing with them... same goes to acedemic ....

i need to change the method of study , base on understanding is not enuf... we have to able to link it to various of direction n aspect ... to be more effective in study .... i think... from wat have i faced now...

i need to be more organized too... otherwise things will be mess up.... especially my pc destop... the files n assignments... speechless*

For my exam, my performance is not so good... Esp Genetics n Molecular bio... almost totally screwed up.... done it badly i think.... i m very worry i manage to pass or not....

i don1 to resit... it is embarrassing n sort of waste of time....

so if i do FAIL in these papers.... i gtg ... leave n move on .... =(

n probably the gone of my existence will make "them" more happy.... esp that 1 person... very obvious the avoidance n un"song" response... which will make me more even sad bcoz that kind of way treating me....

Screwed up on exam =|

Genetics paper 30th...

wat the .... theory part ... use a bit more time d... calculation no time finish .... when it left oni 30 min... i notice tat got 2 question not yet do but juz drafted it alr.... shit lo....

hopefully it can passed la... ><

revision start from 29th morning till 30th 3 am... morning 9 pm continue to 12pm... exhausted man.... but the outcome is not so desirable... =( nvm...

but then... that night .... i din expect my fren will celebrate my earlier 21st bday.... coz normally they will make 1 day earlier for others....

after the exam... i was depressed with wat have i done in answering.... i go to net cafe to play till 7pm + n take away dinner ...

too full after ate my dinner ....

n my fren tell me 9pm later having tea session ... then the time is 8pm now... i was so tired that i quickly sleep for a while.... i wanna wake at 8.45 who noes 8.35+ my fren wake me up... i was so blur till 10 something... coz i not yet recover my "spirit"

at tea session, my take the cake out n put infron me... i was stunted.... n energyless to say a word... not even an "thank U" appreciation.... shit... i m too blurred... u all may tot i pretend to duno.... but i really duno at the first few sec... n after that it make sense n i noe is for me...

i n look at u guys (energyless) with that kind of ... expression....

sry guys... i not purposely make u all feel strange/weird by my moody expression....

tat time i was really... soul-less

worst thing is... they wan me to try seaweed.... coz they noe i dun eat.... but i tried to eat n not to let them down... however... i m toooooo fulll bcoz of my dinner... not yet digest + head blur blur...
tthe taste of seaweed trigger me to vomit easily bcoz i cant stand that unique smell...

n i try to swallow twice n almost throw out.... lucky i din.... but it is such a bad bad bad impression..... OMG.... u guys must be hate me for behaving such ways....

aiks.... i hope u all dun hate me la.... SRY ya....

if u any1 of u all read this... assume u nvr see it... hope u can forgive me by heart ya...

Thx a lot anyway for that celebration.... i very grateful to have ppl like u all around me....

n also sorry for my "bad respond"

Molecular bio paper....

moderate well-prepared ar.... but.... perform badly....

consider screwed up as well.... mind bcum empty.... probably confused with the fact... holy....

aiks.... hate myself ><... brain contain toooo much crap d.... occupied memory space...

i maybe need to repeat d this subject.... but hope God will bless me as usual... juz a pass is enuf =|

haiz....

anyway... i may consider stop Uni life if i failed la... time left not much... time to work at the same time enjoy while waiting "the end" of the world.......

mayb my absence will make "the world" better i think... so .... stay or leave.... let The Lord deside ...